Monday, November 26, 2012

Broken...

Many of you already know of the devastation we've suffered these last few days.
 
After 48 hours of caring for and loving on baby girl as though she would be ours, the birth family changed their minds.  We had to pack up and travel home, the most shocking and painful experience ever.
 
It has been truly awful.  Adoption's worst nightmare come true.  But we'll be ok.  We're getting through and feeling a little more solid every day, much to do with the support of our amazing family. 
 
We haven't been able to bear to communicate much with friends.  We are sorry for that and hope you understand.  We do feel your thoughts and prayers, though.  Thank you so much.

15 comments:

  1. Beth, you and Ross are an amazing couple!
    And yes, you will get through this together.
    Someday, you will have a very special little baby in your life and you will love it even more than you ever dreamed!
    Love you.
    Mom and Chuck

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  2. Your momma said it best.
    You and Ross continue to be in our prayers.
    If there is anything you need, please let me know...although I know there probably isn't much anyone can do right now. I hope time will help heal these wounds.
    xoxo

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  3. Oh Beth...I am so sorry. You two have been on my mind and will continue to be in my thoughts and prayers. There is a little one for you...I am sure of it. Hugs to you both.

    Jenny V

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  4. You and Russ are in our thoughts. We will continue to pray for God's PERFECT plan to unfold in your life.

    Praying!!!

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  5. We are so sorry for your loss. You are in our thoughts and prayers. Hugs to you both!!

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  6. Beth and Ross, Words can not explain how sorry we are for you. Just know you are in our thoughts and prayers.

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  7. Beth and Ross, I am so incredibly sorry to hear about your loss. I know it's not the same, and I don't know if you guys know Doug and I lost our first child. This must be a similar feeling of grief and loss for the two of you. Take time with each other and remember you might go through the stages of grief and loss differently than each other. But hold hands along the way. There is another perfect baby out there for you, and God has a plan for you two!

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  8. I'm so sorry. My heart breaks for the both of you and I'm crying along with you guys. Hugs to you both.

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  9. Many of the women in my clinic (who you have never met, but have been following your story) were devastated by this news today. You have many total strangers praying for you here in Portland as well as your best friend. I so wish I could give you the biggest hug ever and dive into a tub of ice cream with you. I have seen incredible strength in you, unlike anything I could have imagined. I know you will survive this and I am so grateful for your amazing family who will be there for you every step of the way. Two thumbs up to David and Jennifer for being there this weekend! You two are the best! Sending you love, light, prayers and healing energy my friend!

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  10. Again, Beth and Ross, you are an inspiration for us. Thank you for sharing the hardest parts of you journey as well. Sara

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  11. Hi again...I just wanted to say one more thing...I'm not sure if it will bring any comfort, but I hope that it'll help just a little. I have been thinking of you and Ross since I read this post last night and remembering vividly, my own adoption story. It has been 23 years, but I can still remember so clearly my unwavering resolve when I chose to make a plan of adoption for my firstborn. I just knew with every ounce of my being that she was meant for her adoptive parents...her mommy and daddy. Even when I saw her sweet face and spent a few days with her, my decision was only strengthened. I feel so badly that your adoption experience has taken you down this path. I just want to tell you how brave I think you both are. I truly believe that your little one will make his or her way into your arms. You take care...sending good positive thoughts your way, Beth.

    Jenny V

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  12. Beth and Ross, You are both in my thoughts and prayers. I know this is not the road you planned to be on, but I also know that God is good and He does have a plan for you. It's the bumps and road blocks along the way that make us stronger. Hold each other and lean on each other during this time. We are all here for you when you are ready. Kari

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  13. I was devastated to hear this news, Beth. Sending you both strength, love, prayers, and peace as you mourn this terrible loss. I second Kari's words above - We're here for you when you are ready.

    Gina

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  14. Beth and Ross,
    Thinking of you both. Take each day at a time. Prayers and love.
    Linda and Larry

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  15. Beth, I'm so sorry. Thinking about you.

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