Wednesday, September 12, 2012

Some Activity...

Over the last two months, we’ve had some activity, but, unfortunately, nothing has panned out.  While we’re grateful to have activity so soon, it’s challenging to reconcile the feelings of being so close, but yet so far.  I do try and remind myself that maybe we’re not so far.  I know that things could happen at any time.  I wake up each day and think, today could be the day.  The part I need to do better with is the closing of the day when I realize, alas, it was not the day, after all.  Note to self… Resolve to resume focus on new day (and hope for end to merciless repeat)!  A slight wallow, I know, but I say it’s allowed once in a while.  Feel it, then move on; an emotional skill that I’m getting good at.

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  1. I like that you wake up with hope even after being let down so many times in so many ways. I'm sorry the nights can feel so empty. And I'm proud of you for allowing yourself to wallow, to feel it, and to move on.

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  2. Feeling our feelings gives us the ability to let go of them. Without feeling them, they just get stuck and that's not a good thing. I pray that wallow will soon be replaced with joy. It just stinks that we can't control when that will happen. But I have faith that it will! Sending you a big hug in the meantime!

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    1. Right--being stuck is bad! ;)
      Thanks for the faith and hugs!

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  3. lovely... and not wallowing, realistic and expressed :P I'm so proud!

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    1. Thank you, Nicole, for the nice comment and, most of all, for ALL you've taught me!

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